Hi again.
Remember this post? Well, it happened again yesterday (10th July 2015 for future reference) where my dad collapsed on the job. While I didn't witness it due to being at home at the time, someone nearby phoned the emergency number. I was with my dad for about 2 hours in the hospital when we came by ambulance, they did various checks [blood pressure, urine test and heart monitor] and found nothing so they let us go. The doctor recons that it might be to do with enclosed spaces since the first time was in our narrow kitchen and the second time a narrow hallway/steps while vaccuming however are seeing a doctor on top of that. My dad's ribs also hurt so he is in pain right now.
As you might be able to tell, I am very upset, very stressed (more than usual and normally I am stressed) and have been like this even a week before this happened. Have been at mentally breaking point a few times, even today where I felt sore cheekbones or really fluttered. I even cried while shopping today with my mum. If it wasn't for her comforting me, I don't know how I will cope. So I'm looking after my dad, my mum is looking after me and vice versa. After all I believe in being really close to your family and care for them. It is what Don Vito Corleone would do even if I am more Max Payne.
This also mean that I will be leaving the forum (for a break) earlier than expected since my original plans were during the upgrade but this sudden event just makes my mind up. To tell you the truth, I am pretty busy since I am going to be with my parents more than ever, looking after them, helping them even with basic things. Even before this, I am unhappy and really am unhappy now. It is like I'm 80% unhappy with a 20% chance of some short lived happiness. Thanks for all the things that the forum said first time around, really do like it.
So what I am going to be doing while I am looking after my parents since that is top priority? Well I'll be still looking online however online is getting less and less compared to the past (really now GAF for the gaming news until the PS3/Wii U gets no more games means at least until 2016 then, check my emails, Backloggery for gaming progress, looking at a few things, doing some research plus the fortnightly GameSack episodes) since many of the websites that I go on have either shut down or been inactive for years. May try an old thing but it depends on how I feel and just not ready for it. When I'm not on the computer, I'll be on the console playing my games and getting my backlog down. Also I'm still watching and enjoying The Sweeney that is on TV, the past few episodes have been really good [aside from an out of character episode called Trap] even I agreed with Jack Regan on the last episode of Season 2. The series is halfway done now and failing any skipped episodes, it should finish by the end of August (only 53 episodes that is quite a lot for an English show that isn't a soap opera or a game show). After that I don't know what I'll be watching or indeed watching anything at all.
Going towards the backlog, while I have done a decent job trying to clear it with the biggest game being GTA 3 a game that I had for 12 years and finally done it last week (the Xbox version instead of the PC one though), it is a long way to go. It makes harder that many of the short games (mainly FPS) have been done with the harder older stuff really left in that category. The old Master System/Mega Drive/SNES/arcade games. I still can't get any further than the first boss of Super Bomberman 2! The only few exceptions that I can think of are like Split/Second or Dead Space Extraction. So that leaves the really looooooooooooong games like Xenoblade (ouch), White Knight Chronicles (ouch but some of the online part has switched off making it a shorter game), Lightning Returns (double ouch), 3 Tales games (triple ouch!) and the stuff that takes time to play whether it is length/content such as Gran Turismo 6, GTA Vice City, GRID Autosport, Red Dead Redemption, Test Drive Unlimited 2, Yakuza 4, Far Cry 3 and 4 [well played properly for the latter, I know it can be done in 10 minutes], the Assassin's Creed games [apart from 1?] or just plain tricky like some Metal Gear games [including Revengance], Ridge Racer Unbounded, Far Cry 2 [from what I've read it goes ouch in difficulty!], Dead to Rights, the two Operation Flashpoint games, Rainbow Six series and I imagine Mace Griffin Bounty Hunter since that is an unusually long FPS. With a backlog of abour 190 games and feel safe when it gets to less than the 100 range, judging by my behaviour it might take until end of 2016 before I get to the safe zone so I can relax a bit more. Currently playing inFamous at the moment and I'm nearly 50% done despite playing for a week however also juggling with Super Mario Bros. 2 All-Stars version on the side (got to 5-1)*.
* - If anyone is really curious; I prefer to play SMB1 on the Game Boy Color (Deluxe) due to a physic bug on the SNES version and don't mind the screen reduction since to offset it with extra features, SMB2 is either SNES or Advance, SMB3 SNES all the way and Super Mario World either the All-Stars version or Advance 2 due to the slight improvements (redesigned Luigi sprite!). It is simply that I haven't got into the NES. While I do acknowledge that the NES shaped the Japanese and American gaming and there are some good/great to this day exclusive games [well at the time, excluding Virtual Console] however there are some limitations whether it is scrolling or bad colour selection [I am aware of the palette limitations, some look good but others don't depends on the game]. Like SMB3 for an example, the right "overscan" scaling puts me off the game making it look glitchier than it should be and a few other games are like this due to scrolling limitations. That isn't in the SNES version (or the GBA version), plus with its improved graphics, bug fixes and the gameplay is pretty much the same, would rather go for that version.
Will I be lurking still? Well I don't know but it might be a possibility, posts though are out of the question. I will not be back until I feel right to do so. When I am MENTALLY RIGHT and to be honest, I haven't since 2012. With my well known problems with no clear solution, it is perhaps for the best.
Anyway I want to say thank you for many of the members past and present on the forum for being around me, even though for the past two years or so have been on the down, unhappy and to be honest a bit annoying side instead of being the helpful person that I should be.
Remember this post? Well, it happened again yesterday (10th July 2015 for future reference) where my dad collapsed on the job. While I didn't witness it due to being at home at the time, someone nearby phoned the emergency number. I was with my dad for about 2 hours in the hospital when we came by ambulance, they did various checks [blood pressure, urine test and heart monitor] and found nothing so they let us go. The doctor recons that it might be to do with enclosed spaces since the first time was in our narrow kitchen and the second time a narrow hallway/steps while vaccuming however are seeing a doctor on top of that. My dad's ribs also hurt so he is in pain right now.
As you might be able to tell, I am very upset, very stressed (more than usual and normally I am stressed) and have been like this even a week before this happened. Have been at mentally breaking point a few times, even today where I felt sore cheekbones or really fluttered. I even cried while shopping today with my mum. If it wasn't for her comforting me, I don't know how I will cope. So I'm looking after my dad, my mum is looking after me and vice versa. After all I believe in being really close to your family and care for them. It is what Don Vito Corleone would do even if I am more Max Payne.
This also mean that I will be leaving the forum (for a break) earlier than expected since my original plans were during the upgrade but this sudden event just makes my mind up. To tell you the truth, I am pretty busy since I am going to be with my parents more than ever, looking after them, helping them even with basic things. Even before this, I am unhappy and really am unhappy now. It is like I'm 80% unhappy with a 20% chance of some short lived happiness. Thanks for all the things that the forum said first time around, really do like it.
So what I am going to be doing while I am looking after my parents since that is top priority? Well I'll be still looking online however online is getting less and less compared to the past (really now GAF for the gaming news until the PS3/Wii U gets no more games means at least until 2016 then, check my emails, Backloggery for gaming progress, looking at a few things, doing some research plus the fortnightly GameSack episodes) since many of the websites that I go on have either shut down or been inactive for years. May try an old thing but it depends on how I feel and just not ready for it. When I'm not on the computer, I'll be on the console playing my games and getting my backlog down. Also I'm still watching and enjoying The Sweeney that is on TV, the past few episodes have been really good [aside from an out of character episode called Trap] even I agreed with Jack Regan on the last episode of Season 2. The series is halfway done now and failing any skipped episodes, it should finish by the end of August (only 53 episodes that is quite a lot for an English show that isn't a soap opera or a game show). After that I don't know what I'll be watching or indeed watching anything at all.
Going towards the backlog, while I have done a decent job trying to clear it with the biggest game being GTA 3 a game that I had for 12 years and finally done it last week (the Xbox version instead of the PC one though), it is a long way to go. It makes harder that many of the short games (mainly FPS) have been done with the harder older stuff really left in that category. The old Master System/Mega Drive/SNES/arcade games. I still can't get any further than the first boss of Super Bomberman 2! The only few exceptions that I can think of are like Split/Second or Dead Space Extraction. So that leaves the really looooooooooooong games like Xenoblade (ouch), White Knight Chronicles (ouch but some of the online part has switched off making it a shorter game), Lightning Returns (double ouch), 3 Tales games (triple ouch!) and the stuff that takes time to play whether it is length/content such as Gran Turismo 6, GTA Vice City, GRID Autosport, Red Dead Redemption, Test Drive Unlimited 2, Yakuza 4, Far Cry 3 and 4 [well played properly for the latter, I know it can be done in 10 minutes], the Assassin's Creed games [apart from 1?] or just plain tricky like some Metal Gear games [including Revengance], Ridge Racer Unbounded, Far Cry 2 [from what I've read it goes ouch in difficulty!], Dead to Rights, the two Operation Flashpoint games, Rainbow Six series and I imagine Mace Griffin Bounty Hunter since that is an unusually long FPS. With a backlog of abour 190 games and feel safe when it gets to less than the 100 range, judging by my behaviour it might take until end of 2016 before I get to the safe zone so I can relax a bit more. Currently playing inFamous at the moment and I'm nearly 50% done despite playing for a week however also juggling with Super Mario Bros. 2 All-Stars version on the side (got to 5-1)*.
* - If anyone is really curious; I prefer to play SMB1 on the Game Boy Color (Deluxe) due to a physic bug on the SNES version and don't mind the screen reduction since to offset it with extra features, SMB2 is either SNES or Advance, SMB3 SNES all the way and Super Mario World either the All-Stars version or Advance 2 due to the slight improvements (redesigned Luigi sprite!). It is simply that I haven't got into the NES. While I do acknowledge that the NES shaped the Japanese and American gaming and there are some good/great to this day exclusive games [well at the time, excluding Virtual Console] however there are some limitations whether it is scrolling or bad colour selection [I am aware of the palette limitations, some look good but others don't depends on the game]. Like SMB3 for an example, the right "overscan" scaling puts me off the game making it look glitchier than it should be and a few other games are like this due to scrolling limitations. That isn't in the SNES version (or the GBA version), plus with its improved graphics, bug fixes and the gameplay is pretty much the same, would rather go for that version.
Will I be lurking still? Well I don't know but it might be a possibility, posts though are out of the question. I will not be back until I feel right to do so. When I am MENTALLY RIGHT and to be honest, I haven't since 2012. With my well known problems with no clear solution, it is perhaps for the best.
Anyway I want to say thank you for many of the members past and present on the forum for being around me, even though for the past two years or so have been on the down, unhappy and to be honest a bit annoying side instead of being the helpful person that I should be.