Hi. In case you haven't noticed I'm not very active. In fact I've kinda stopped posting entirely. I'm just gonna cut to the chase and admit that I can't really stick around this community anymore.
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There's more potential for doing something outside the internet, or somewhere else on the internet. I don't have enough time nowadays to do what I used to do, which is wait for something fun to come up in this community, which in my defense is less often that it used to be anyway.
I'm using the term "community" here instead of website because I don't just mean this forum. The general internet activity of this Sauce Boss is slowing to a crawl, and will probably stop altogether when I end up making some new accounts for some places. I'm seeing other websites and other content I could be making and different people I could get to know, and maybe that's what I should do. Start fresh with some people who aren't jaded or aren't going through any motions and try to keep myself from doing that to them.
I've gone out of my way in the past to keep everyone at an arms length around here. I stopped doing that a little while ago and opened up to a few people. That was also the first time on the internet that I've shown some disdain for people. I have no regrets when it comes to shitposting (you're all big guys, you can take it) but whenever I go on a tirade or just seem like I'm disagreeable to you in particular, know that I regret acting like that. At some point I stopped caring about what I said and to whom, and that's not something I want to do anymore. Not that I'm about to take back anything I may have said, but if I never took the time to ease back and make sure to remind any of you that I don't really want any sort of bad blood, then know that I do not want that. Even on a forum about youtube shit. That kind of vibe I was giving off was just me trying more desperately to justify why I still belong around here. That includes places like tumblr and skype. I cant seem to make anything worthwhile happen there myself and I can't expect anything to show up out of nowhere. I can't help but feel like I'm spinning my wheels at this point and just using this community as an outlet or punching bag when I can't be part of something worthwhile isn't making anyone happy.
This was the first recreational website I joined, if you don't count youtube. I had never been to a forum before, nor had I been on any catch-all internet hub like 4chan, reddit, or other awful places. I don't regret staying around as long as I have, and I don't want this to be confused with a "you're not good enough for me anymore" message. I just feel like the small amount I fit in is behind me, and forcing it has only made it clear for me that I should give up the ghost. For now you can stay in contact with me on skype but if that ever becomes untrue, just refer back to this because most of the people I know on that account are branches extending from this community. At the very least thank you guys for introducing me to internet communities in general, and hopefully things only get better from here for all of us.
Now I can't speak for you but I think that was much better than spamming pornography.
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There's more potential for doing something outside the internet, or somewhere else on the internet. I don't have enough time nowadays to do what I used to do, which is wait for something fun to come up in this community, which in my defense is less often that it used to be anyway.
I'm using the term "community" here instead of website because I don't just mean this forum. The general internet activity of this Sauce Boss is slowing to a crawl, and will probably stop altogether when I end up making some new accounts for some places. I'm seeing other websites and other content I could be making and different people I could get to know, and maybe that's what I should do. Start fresh with some people who aren't jaded or aren't going through any motions and try to keep myself from doing that to them.
I've gone out of my way in the past to keep everyone at an arms length around here. I stopped doing that a little while ago and opened up to a few people. That was also the first time on the internet that I've shown some disdain for people. I have no regrets when it comes to shitposting (you're all big guys, you can take it) but whenever I go on a tirade or just seem like I'm disagreeable to you in particular, know that I regret acting like that. At some point I stopped caring about what I said and to whom, and that's not something I want to do anymore. Not that I'm about to take back anything I may have said, but if I never took the time to ease back and make sure to remind any of you that I don't really want any sort of bad blood, then know that I do not want that. Even on a forum about youtube shit. That kind of vibe I was giving off was just me trying more desperately to justify why I still belong around here. That includes places like tumblr and skype. I cant seem to make anything worthwhile happen there myself and I can't expect anything to show up out of nowhere. I can't help but feel like I'm spinning my wheels at this point and just using this community as an outlet or punching bag when I can't be part of something worthwhile isn't making anyone happy.
This was the first recreational website I joined, if you don't count youtube. I had never been to a forum before, nor had I been on any catch-all internet hub like 4chan, reddit, or other awful places. I don't regret staying around as long as I have, and I don't want this to be confused with a "you're not good enough for me anymore" message. I just feel like the small amount I fit in is behind me, and forcing it has only made it clear for me that I should give up the ghost. For now you can stay in contact with me on skype but if that ever becomes untrue, just refer back to this because most of the people I know on that account are branches extending from this community. At the very least thank you guys for introducing me to internet communities in general, and hopefully things only get better from here for all of us.
Now I can't speak for you but I think that was much better than spamming pornography.