Hello again. I've tried writing a retrospective on OutRun 2006 and my opinions on various gaming companies but I just had to stop due to that I couldn't come up with something good to continue and very likely that only a few would read it. So instead yet another on how am I feeling post. I do read your comments that you made and sometimes feel touched.
Right now, I'm just about okay. Still a bit sad that I can't do anything creative and gave up with the Top Secret project. It's not the other people's fault, it is mine for being incompotent and just a pipe dream that will NEVER happen.
There hasn't been much on TV lately; Futurama has gone off the air due to repeating the same 20 episodes on a loop, Simpsons repeating the same 20 episodes on a loop so got fed up, no decent cartoons anymore and nearly everything is either depressing dramas or politics in disguise so I've started to watch something and every so often actually mention this series. I had to resort on watching The Sweeney, a 70s cop show set in London with a great theme song. Strangely enough, I was actually introduced to this series by the 2012 film. That was absolutely horrible and only able to stomach 45 minutes until I had enough, the detective was a fat pervert who made sex with an slightly underaged female police officer in the toliets, nearly every sentence they swore and they were very corrupt. The old saying goes ask your parents so I actually asked my mum and she told me the series wasn't like that at all since both my parents were around when the original series was on TV. It started to air this week luckily enough so have been watching it and to my surprise actually enjoying it. It was nearly opposite to the recent film; Regan hardly swore, apart from drinking a bit of scotch wasn't really corrupt but was willing to bend the rules (later Frost and Luther did the same thing, Rebus also drank as well) and the only thing closest to sex was sleeping with women. Had some action balanced with some detective work, bearing in mind that DNA evidence and many technological things weren't invented so much of the time Regan (the detective) and Carter (his sidekick) did things with their bare hands, hunches, chases, shouting and a couple of plans that could be considered insane for the police nowadays. A few that I watched were intense and gripping (the pilot Ringer, Night Out) also some tamer episodes (the others) too. It did skip an episode for some reason so watched on Youtube that again surprisely enough hasn't been removed and wonder why...
Lately I haven't been as passionate about the forum and the only reason why I've stuck here is because I have no place to go really, have also been slightly annoyed lately.
It is just inner circle among inner circle; with the Metal Gear fans, the anime fans, Steam users, the writers, the artists, the movie watchers, pot smokers, the poop tennis cafe, some who are in other inner circles too. Couldn't fit in at all since sadly I don't fit into those categories at all even though I did try with the tennis cafe. Corruption? Nah or is there? Honestly I want to be part of a community but from my experiences from various forums, just never managed to feel right at home. There was also the matters that I haven't felt comfortable since I've come back this year. When I was in Sonic Stadium last year, the entire forum was pretty much inner circle among inner circle and just couldn't breaking in at all. I did see Daya there but he went back to Youchew since he couldn't breaking in either. You had the drawers (one was ex-Youchew) that got all the praise, you had the passionate Nintendo fans, there were the regulars staff who was there for like 6-8 years and so tight knitted that only 1 mod managed to join in that inner circle who was there a couple of years ago. There was an inner circle that had a few members that were entertaining who were on the forum even though they don't like Sonic anymore but still stuck around. talked like this lol I think one member would have fitted into Youchew just fine from that inner circle since he liked manga and certain anime that was a bit saucy.
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[Done by Ted a few years ago, even as a joke the mind works in mysterious ways and in one train of thought could be considered true]
To be honest, I have made a few mistakes here and the other day, I mentioned about giving up. I was refering to giving up being on this forum rather that you know since that is one thing that I would not do in most circumstances. Do think some of it are recent posts that I made the mistakes. It is perhaps a case of bad wording, after all I'm not very good at English and rather just wanted to well defend that it just isn't that but other factors too. From the sounds of things, I do think Youchew can be a bit hard on the disabled at times. It might even be an American thing and from what I found about the stereotypical Americans is that they are all me me me without giving considering to the rest of the world, into their sometimes good and sometimes rubbish programming or Japanese anime and can be very cruel/immature sometimes. It could be a type of humour that the Americans (and some English speaking people to use) but then again I don't have a sense of humour so it is hard to tell. Not saying that every single member from the US on here is like that but does feel like it. Yeah, I made mistakes and I admit it.
Then again I don't like arguments or debate (one reason why left Sonic Stadium actually since they loved that stuff), much of the time myself is in the wrong anyway.
The best thing that I can do is to have a break from here instead of getting annoyed by recent activity, it isn't to say that I'm leaving because to be completely honest I don't even know myself but rather I don't know whether it is going to be a week or two, a month or two or even years. It is until I feel right here and I haven't been right here throughout my time here and have been here for a really long time (the only reason why I came back here was because Sonic Stadium went down earlier this year, even then I felt out of place there when I was there for about a year and a bit). If I somehow disappear for more than a year or two, it might be down to the government and who knows maybe they block Youchew cause you never know...
Thinking the best time for me to have my break will be when tabull updates the forum to the latest version, that way the forum is down so I just walk away. Besides chances are that many of the members will be on Skype or another forum during this time anyway and still haven't found anyone to talk to after 3 years after you know what happened. I don't feel comfortable talking at all and in reality, I actually do have a simple mind and the only reason why my posts somehow become long was because of other places in the past.
Besides even if somehow I left the forums, I wouldn't do any attention seeking measures to cause harm because I consider that immature and the people who do uses these forums, only these forums would find it unfair with no place to talk about stuff. Sure that there are a few people that either do not like or feel uncomfortable around however the rest of the people am neutral about, even like a few people and they don't deserve hassle.
Right now, I'm just about okay. Still a bit sad that I can't do anything creative and gave up with the Top Secret project. It's not the other people's fault, it is mine for being incompotent and just a pipe dream that will NEVER happen.
There hasn't been much on TV lately; Futurama has gone off the air due to repeating the same 20 episodes on a loop, Simpsons repeating the same 20 episodes on a loop so got fed up, no decent cartoons anymore and nearly everything is either depressing dramas or politics in disguise so I've started to watch something and every so often actually mention this series. I had to resort on watching The Sweeney, a 70s cop show set in London with a great theme song. Strangely enough, I was actually introduced to this series by the 2012 film. That was absolutely horrible and only able to stomach 45 minutes until I had enough, the detective was a fat pervert who made sex with an slightly underaged female police officer in the toliets, nearly every sentence they swore and they were very corrupt. The old saying goes ask your parents so I actually asked my mum and she told me the series wasn't like that at all since both my parents were around when the original series was on TV. It started to air this week luckily enough so have been watching it and to my surprise actually enjoying it. It was nearly opposite to the recent film; Regan hardly swore, apart from drinking a bit of scotch wasn't really corrupt but was willing to bend the rules (later Frost and Luther did the same thing, Rebus also drank as well) and the only thing closest to sex was sleeping with women. Had some action balanced with some detective work, bearing in mind that DNA evidence and many technological things weren't invented so much of the time Regan (the detective) and Carter (his sidekick) did things with their bare hands, hunches, chases, shouting and a couple of plans that could be considered insane for the police nowadays. A few that I watched were intense and gripping (the pilot Ringer, Night Out) also some tamer episodes (the others) too. It did skip an episode for some reason so watched on Youtube that again surprisely enough hasn't been removed and wonder why...
Lately I haven't been as passionate about the forum and the only reason why I've stuck here is because I have no place to go really, have also been slightly annoyed lately.
It is just inner circle among inner circle; with the Metal Gear fans, the anime fans, Steam users, the writers, the artists, the movie watchers, pot smokers, the poop tennis cafe, some who are in other inner circles too. Couldn't fit in at all since sadly I don't fit into those categories at all even though I did try with the tennis cafe. Corruption? Nah or is there? Honestly I want to be part of a community but from my experiences from various forums, just never managed to feel right at home. There was also the matters that I haven't felt comfortable since I've come back this year. When I was in Sonic Stadium last year, the entire forum was pretty much inner circle among inner circle and just couldn't breaking in at all. I did see Daya there but he went back to Youchew since he couldn't breaking in either. You had the drawers (one was ex-Youchew) that got all the praise, you had the passionate Nintendo fans, there were the regulars staff who was there for like 6-8 years and so tight knitted that only 1 mod managed to join in that inner circle who was there a couple of years ago. There was an inner circle that had a few members that were entertaining who were on the forum even though they don't like Sonic anymore but still stuck around. talked like this lol I think one member would have fitted into Youchew just fine from that inner circle since he liked manga and certain anime that was a bit saucy.
[Done by Ted a few years ago, even as a joke the mind works in mysterious ways and in one train of thought could be considered true]
To be honest, I have made a few mistakes here and the other day, I mentioned about giving up. I was refering to giving up being on this forum rather that you know since that is one thing that I would not do in most circumstances. Do think some of it are recent posts that I made the mistakes. It is perhaps a case of bad wording, after all I'm not very good at English and rather just wanted to well defend that it just isn't that but other factors too. From the sounds of things, I do think Youchew can be a bit hard on the disabled at times. It might even be an American thing and from what I found about the stereotypical Americans is that they are all me me me without giving considering to the rest of the world, into their sometimes good and sometimes rubbish programming or Japanese anime and can be very cruel/immature sometimes. It could be a type of humour that the Americans (and some English speaking people to use) but then again I don't have a sense of humour so it is hard to tell. Not saying that every single member from the US on here is like that but does feel like it. Yeah, I made mistakes and I admit it.
Then again I don't like arguments or debate (one reason why left Sonic Stadium actually since they loved that stuff), much of the time myself is in the wrong anyway.
The best thing that I can do is to have a break from here instead of getting annoyed by recent activity, it isn't to say that I'm leaving because to be completely honest I don't even know myself but rather I don't know whether it is going to be a week or two, a month or two or even years. It is until I feel right here and I haven't been right here throughout my time here and have been here for a really long time (the only reason why I came back here was because Sonic Stadium went down earlier this year, even then I felt out of place there when I was there for about a year and a bit). If I somehow disappear for more than a year or two, it might be down to the government and who knows maybe they block Youchew cause you never know...
Thinking the best time for me to have my break will be when tabull updates the forum to the latest version, that way the forum is down so I just walk away. Besides chances are that many of the members will be on Skype or another forum during this time anyway and still haven't found anyone to talk to after 3 years after you know what happened. I don't feel comfortable talking at all and in reality, I actually do have a simple mind and the only reason why my posts somehow become long was because of other places in the past.
Besides even if somehow I left the forums, I wouldn't do any attention seeking measures to cause harm because I consider that immature and the people who do uses these forums, only these forums would find it unfair with no place to talk about stuff. Sure that there are a few people that either do not like or feel uncomfortable around however the rest of the people am neutral about, even like a few people and they don't deserve hassle.